Friends..past present n what to be

wat actually happened to me for the past few days?was actually quite euphoric...didnt feel like i was in reality.. maybe that's cos ppktj is reality and that really just sucks eh?hrMm.. i actually stayed at ben's place after my road trip..his parents are actually very pleasant n it's cool to see how business like people run their lives.It also gave me my 1st experience on an S-class...bloody hell..one experience i wont forget... ben is still the same person i havent seen since june or so.. the mugger n tuition type...but that's because he's studying in sing n i can't blame him. enjoyed his company for the last couple of days n sad to say that i hafta wake up from my dream n go back to reality tomorrow..sighs..

anyways,yesterday i went out for dinner with my old friends, angie, jane n alai.. was actually wonderin how they were as i havent seen jane n alai for quite a while. Seemed kinda awkward.. thought they might have changed.. However,it was a pleasant surprise that they were all still the same. Jane speaking at the top of her voice..heng huas.. that's the word! was actually pleasant to hear that word... seemed to foreign already considered it was one of the most frequently used word last yr..with the exception of cheap joke..btw,i heard the lodge phrase 'cheap joke' has infected russia because of joyoki, thts the way man! anyways,we went to eat fish head in taipan n it wasnt all too bad..good meal!hehe..dunno when i'll be seein them again though.. sunway n subang is just too far!

today..was boring..till evening to say the least..met some more asean people..choii syn,alex n pei xin(ex). was fun!went to mid valley..n watched shark tale..talked bout old times n seems no one has changed much.. apparently they have an altar of me in sing ..of all my unwanted rubbish which includes a pillow, my star hub bottle,etc..

oh yea,over this past few days.. i was actually a part time baby sitter.. of two 4 yr old twins.. an interestin pair! one had chicken pox.. but both were joyful n happy..neither seemed sick at all.. it's actually quite hard takin care of them unless they;re sleepin. or not they'll be like climbing all over u! i never had a younger sibling so i wouldnt know tht much.It was fun to say the least... they still seem to be innocent of the real word n it was cool to see tht. btw,one of them actually spoke better eng than msot ppl at ppktj..serrious..

all in all..over this last few days did teach me something.... nothin has changed, every1 has moved on though maybe except me... i dunno,maybe i'm just scared of losing friends...drifting apart all together.. real sad case.. it'll happen one day though but i hope i dont want to see that day.. i dont think i can bear it at all.. somehow, i must move on to get over this misery and emptiness of mine but i cant seem to bear myself to do it!how? i've yet to find an answer...sighs...

friends....just how important are they to me?